Friday, October 28, 2005


This has been a couple of weeks for gifts.
AND....I am liking it...LOL

Firstly, a pal I made on knitting parents and then flyingselfchallenge.
Claudiais a doll!
She has been one of my greatest supporters in my quest for health. So she sent me a small gift to reward me for my efforts.
The card and stitch markers are awesome...stitch markers have dragonflies on them for luck.

Onto friend number two.....
In today's mail was a package from my Southern SP.
What a pick-me-up!!!
It was like Christmas....
First this is what I saw......
And then after the fury of ripping open all the little packages....I found a cute card complete with made-for-me poem, a knitting clam, wool wash, stitch markers, soap and 2 balls of a soft red wool called Beautiful by Sensations.

I see a nice fuzzy scarf in my near future...stay tuned for futher pictures.

So to my dear pals out there...THANKS!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sunday, October 16, 2005

What you don't know

When I started this blog, it was to document the changes I had decided to make in my life. It is only through change that our spirit can grow.
First it was physical. One of the easier
But I, also, hoped to include my mental and emotional changes as well.

Many of you know that I am the proud mom of a beautiful almost 10 year old daughter. And even though we clash on many occassions, she is my greatest joy!
What you don't know is that I am also the mom of two beautiful boys who now run with the angels.

The reason I posted the picture below is to introduce you to my first son, Matthew.
When Sheridan was 22 months old our home was expanded my one....this beautiful boy.
I believed that my family was complete. Boy and girl, husband and wife. Who could ask for anything more perfect. He was gorgeous...huge blue eyes surrounded by the longest eyelashes and the joy of all who met him...especially his big sister.
The two would just sit for hours, in the silence and you could see their contentment.

However, one week before Christmas, we took Matthew to emergency for dehydration, only to have him have a seizure. We were admitted and all seemed clear 2 days later.

3 weeks later, we went to emergency again and he once again had a couple of seizures. We were admitted to the Children's hospital...put with a neurologist and numerous tests were completed. By only God's luck we were paired with a neurologist who had dealt with Matthew's illness, 16 years before. He was diagnosed with Menkes or kinky hair syndrome.

We were brought into the doctor's office and informed that the disease our precious son had was terminal. They had no clue what would happen over time or how long he had, all they could say was that he was only ours for a short time.


We were blessed with knowing this beautiful little boy for 14 months. August 26, 1997 to October 15, 1998. Yesterday was his birthday into heaven.

I often think of the scene in "Steel Magnolias" where the mom says she was blessed to be there when that beautiful creature came into the world and when she left. I was blessed in such a way.

My husband and I made his comfort our mission. He was only in the hospital one more time and that was to insert a feeding tube which they thought he would not recover from. But his spirit fought back and he stayed another 2 months.

After 3 years of grieving, and having the genetics doctors tell us that I couldn't be a carrier...we tried again...only to find out at 17 weeks that Zachary too had the disease. Making the most difficult choice of my life, I decided I couldn't let him suffer as much or worse than Matthew had, so I terminated the pregnancy. This was difficult on more than one level because I truly am a Pro-lifer for myself. But motherhood won out over my value system.

I am not telling you this tale to make you sad or have you feel pity for me.
Knowing these two boys has been a double-edged sword. I was privileged to know them and I wouldn't wish away any of my time with them, because that would be the same as not wanting them...and that would be a true crime.

I want the world to know about these two precious souls.
I still struggle daily with the lost and don't know if I will ever totally heal but there are days when I can go without thinking every hour about them.
This also has placed me on another journey with my husband...but that is another day's discussion.

So tonight as you tuck your children into bed, realize what a gift you have.
Yes they drove you insane and they will again tomorrow. They know how to push our buttons and how to say the nastiest of things. But at the same time...they are only ours for such a small amount of time.

Treasure the gift while you have it....and remember two precious angels now and then.

Meet Matthew Posted by Picasa

Sunday, October 09, 2005

Sunday check in

Good Morning everyone :-)

Its Thanksgiving here in Canada and I am thankful for so many things.
But the main thing is that I have finally started to take my health seriously.
This exercising and changing of lifestyle will in the long run improve my life in so many different ways.

Hitch your wagon to a star!
-Ralph Waldo Emerson, American philosopher and poet

Weekly Update
1. What is your current weight?
159 (160)(166)(166)(165)(166)

2. What have you done well this week? What makes you proud of you?
I have exercised 7 days this week...even when my mood has not been really focused on the task. Once I start, I always start enjoying the movement.
I have also been watching my snacking intake. Its amazing how I really don't miss the snacks. If I do indulge I have a taste over a bowlful.

3. What could you be doing better or improving?
I need to look into increasing my weight level. Right now I am using 2lb weights and it is getting a bit too easy. Time for 5lbers.
Also, I really need to look more at getting my water intake up.

4. What is your game plan for next week?
Increase intake of water, eat breakfast everyday and increase weights.

Now take the time and think about what you are thankful for!!!

Monday, October 03, 2005


So after a month of struggling to get the scale to move, I finally reached success!
I never thought this day would come, or that it would mean so
Exercise and good eating obviously do lead to good things - in time.

When you alwasy do your best, you take action.
Doing your best is taking action because you love it, not because you're expecting a reward.
- Don Miguel Ruiz, author of The Four Agreements

Weekly Update

1. What is your current weight?
160 (166)(166)(165)(166)

2. What have you done well this week? What makes you proud of you?
I am so proud of my eating...even though there has been major stress this week, food has not been my first course of action. That is a huge step to success!

3. What could you be doing better or improving?
My intact of food and water is something that still needs lots of managing.

4. What is your game plan for the next week?
8 glasses of water and breakfast daily

This week I also took measurements. Hopefully when the scale doesn't move these figures might show me some change.

Chest - 0ver- 41"
under- 33 1/2"
waist - 35"
hip - 37"
calf - 15"
bicep - 13"
thigh - 22 3/4"

Sunday, September 25, 2005

A lightbulb moment

Nothing splendid has ever been achieved except by those who
believed that something inside of them was superior to circumstance
- Bruce Barton, American advertising executive, writer and congressman

Today as I was preparing to give my weekly update on my health challenge, I was very disheartened to read my scale. 166lbs again! How can that be?
I have exercised every day religiously for 1 full month.

Almost on the verge of tears I hear a little voice say (hubby sounding) "you know muscle weighs more than fat!" I just wanted to box his ears. Is this what I wanted to!....I wanted that silly dial on the scale to read differently.

And then the lightbulb flew up. Yes muscle does weigh more than fat. I had decided to focus mostly on my exercise this month and I had done that. Looking at my body in the mirror (not always an easy task) I noticed my stomach flattening, my arms are more defined in their tone and my butt is lifting. Isn't that lots? Then as I contemplated this futher, I realized that it had taken me 17 years to get where I am at what made me think that one month would take me to where I need to go.

This revelation was a true lightbulb explosion. I am now psyched to move forward.

Week 4 Update
Finished the book...will start again tomorrow

1. What is your current weight?
166 (166) (165) (166)

2. What have you done well this week? What makes you proud of you?
I have exercised 7 days this week. Even on the day when life was so hectic that it would have been easier just to skip....I buckled down and exercised after my daughter was in bed. That is a huge step for me...guilt for not makes me feel energized and proud of myself.

3. What could you be doing better or improving?
I think it is easier to focus on one change a month. So I will continue to exercise but increase my treadmill by 10 mins and my crunches by 2 more sets.
I will also make it my intent for the next month to try and get my daily 8-8oz glasses of water.

4. What is your game plan for week 5?
I will exercise 7 days this week....drink 8 glasses of water each day and try and remember to eat breakfast each day.

Forward to a better me.....

Thursday, September 22, 2005

Its official!

As of 10:30pm, on Wednesday, September 21, I have knitted my first sock.
I made it out of Knitpicks Simple Stripes.
For a first attempt, I think it is alright. However, the crafter in me is seeing all the The sock is a bit long and the heel just doesn't sit right when the sock is flat, but when it is on all is fine.

I am thrilled to say I have entered the world of sock knitters. Now to move onto two so that I can have a pair and actually wear my creation.

Promise pictures will be posted soon. Hubby has the camera on his vacation. I put a word into the Christmas fairy that it sure would be nice to have my own digital...let's see what Christmas brings.

Sunday, September 18, 2005

Sunday weigh in and quote

Shoot for the moon. Even if you miss, you'll land among the stars.
-Les Brown, motivational author

1. What is your current weight? (165)(166) 166lbs
2. what have you done well this week? What makes you proud of you?
I have exercised 7 days this week...even on the days when I am busy I have fit exercise somewhere into the day. This is a big step for me....I am heading back on track.

3. what could you be doing better or improving?
I really must focus more on my food intake. I need to find healthier snacks and most definitely start eating breakfast again. Food and I need to find a better working relationship...enough tug of war stuff

4. What is your game plan for week4?
I need to make a menu and stick to it. Also, I need to find jobs to keep my hands busy and full so there is no room for the

This has been a difficult week for me. I hate when Hubby is away...all focus goes out the window...but I deserve what I am striving for...its time to remember what my goal is and shoot for that moon.

Thursday, September 15, 2005

SP6 and SP5 bragging

Hi ya'll...that greeting is in honor of my new SP...the one spoiling me.
She is a southern how did I get so lucky?!?!?!
I am a die-hard southern wannabe. I love Gone with the and two....I love the era of ladies and gentlemen...anything civil war based...I can listen to someone with a southern accent talk for hours and my favorite family vacation was a tour around Charleston and Myrtle Beach, South Carolina. I am really looking forward to getting to know you.

As for the one I am spoiling...I received her name today as well. I won't be saying much about her until the spoiling is done. Don't want to ruin the surprize, but let it be known I am looking forward to that blossoming friendship as well.

The SP5 experience was such a positive experience for spoiler was Cindy She is guiding me in my sock journey. I have to admit my first attempt has resulted in a pile of pulled apart yarn on the floor but I have not been broken and will try again tomorrow.

The one I was spoiling was Jennifer
Now I want to take this moment to brag a bit about her. I am so proud to call this lady my friend. She will be leaving in a few days time to coucil those who have survived Hurricane Katrina. It just amazes me! We all try to help in our own way...sending money, making survival kits, gathering clothing and the list goes on...but Jennifer is the first person I know that is leaving the comfort of her own home to go into the unknown and offer a helping hand. She has no clue what to expect when she gets there but that is not stopping her from helping. So if you get a moment...stop by her blog and give her some words of support or prayers for this challenge ahead.

The SPs has been such a blessing for me. It is like the Penpals of my childhood. Getting to meet women from all corners of the world and walks of life is such a great experience. I look forward to doing this as long as they are around....a person can never have too many friends!!!

Sunday, September 11, 2005

Sunday weigh in and quote

Knowing is not enough;
We must Apply.
Willing is not enough;
We must Do.
- Johann Wolfgang von Goethe, German poet, novelist, and playwright

Its been a full week of conscious thought for health and did I do?

1. What is your current weight?
165lbs (166lbs)

2. What have you done well this week? What makes your proud of you?
This week I did intentional exercise 6 days this week...30 mins of cardio (either treadmill or exercise tape) and then my other exercises.
I am proud that I care enough for myself to keep my goal and put me first.

3. What could you be doing better or improving?
I need to be more conscious about what I am eating and drinking

4. What is your game plan for week 3?
I plan on doing intentional exercise everyday and increasing my water intake...aim for 8 - 8oz glasses each day

So now to move forward....

Saturday, September 10, 2005

Expanding the mind

Well I sure have done it
My latest past time has been to read the knitting blogs. I have found a file full of new project ideas and I get a peek into other people's lives (which is always a hoot).

While I was browsing the other day I came across

This is a great group that combines the reading of classic novels with knitting.
My September goal was to start reading daily...and while the fiction I have been reading has been good...a classic is always better.

So of course - I joined!

Right now we are voting on what to read for October and November...I can't wait to see what my first book will be...and then to find a knitting project that goes with the book...hhmmm! Now that should be interesting!!!!

SP6 questionnaire

1. Are you a yarn snob (do you prefer higher quality and/or natural fibers)? Do you avoid Red Heart and Lion Brand? Or is it all the same to you?
ABSOLUTELY NOT!!!!!!!!!!! I love to experiment with all yarn types.

2. Do you spin? Crochet?
I crochet but have never tried my hand at spinning...however I am starting to think I might in the future

3. Do you have any allergies? (smoke, pets, fibers, perfume, etc.)
No allergies at all...just sensitivities to smoke and textures

4. How long have you been knitting?
I have been knitting since I was about 7...over 30 years

5. Do you have an Amazon or other online wish list?
I don't have one yet but am thinking it is time I check into it

6. What's your favorite scent? (for candles, bath products etc.)
I love lavendar, jasmine, vanilla and musk scents
7. Do you have a sweet tooth?
Yes I do...especially hard candies and chocolate

8. What other crafts or Do-It-Yourself things do you like to do?
I like to try all things...cross stitch, scrapbooking, sewing, painting, beadwork, and am thinking strongly about starting to do some quilting

9. What kind of music do you like? Can your computer/stereo play MP3s? (if your buddy wants to make you a CD)
I like all types of, rock, pop, name it.
My machine can play MP3s

10. What's your favorite color? Or--do you have a color family/season/palette you prefer? Any colors you just can't stand?
I like red, red and oh!!! LOL
I like bright true, green, red, pink, orange, etc.
I am not a black, white or gray person...find them non-colors

11. What is your family situation? Do you have any pets?
I am a SAHM for one motorcycling loving hubby, an energetic 9 yr-old daughter, one huskey (Scout), two cats (Patches and Sierra), and one beta fish (Ming)

12. What are your life dreams? (really stretching it here, I know)
Life time with my family....pursue my interests...always learning new things...hopefully take an aromatherapy class soon...but most of all I am trying to be happy in the moment.

13. What is/are your favorite yarn/s to knit with?
Anything that is soft to the touch

14. What fibers do you absolutely *not* like?
Anything scratchy to the touch

15. What is/are your current knitting obsession/s?
I am trying my hand at knitting socks

16. What is/are your favorite item/s to knit?
As long as I am knitting...I am happy!

17. What are you knitting right now?
Socks, a stole, cardigan and a cami

18. What do you think about ponchos?
Am looking for a nice light pattern poncho for the cooler months.
Have made a poncho for my daughter as well

19. Do you prefer straight or circular needles?
Either is fine with me

20. Bamboo, aluminum, plastic?
I have them all...but am finding I like bamboo the best

21. Are you a sock knitter?
Trying it right now for the first time thanks to my SP5 buddy

22. How did you learn to knit?
My dear sweet grandmother who passed away this summer

23. How old is your oldest UFO?
(hanging my head in shame) I was cleaning up my craft room, I found a Christmas sweater I started over 16 years ago...needless to say it isn't

24. What is your favorite animated character or a favorite animal/bird?
I love Eeyore, Elmo and Spike the dog

25. What is your favorite holiday?
Christmas all the way

26. Is there anything that you collect?

27. What knitting magazine subscriptions do you have?
Not yet but am thinking about subscribing to "Cast ON"

28. Any books out there you are dying to get your hands on?
Stitch 'n Bitch Nation, Knitting without tears, Last Minute Knitted gifts,and Knit along with Debbie Macomber (either book)

29. Any patterns you have been coveting, but haven't bought for one reason or another??
The Cutaway, Scoop du Jour and Ribby Cardi on Chicknits

30. What are your foot measurements, and what kind of socks do you like?
Foot measurements??? 8 1/4 inches long...wear size 7-8 shoe
Like light cotton or fuzzy, soft and warm socks

Sunday, September 04, 2005

Sunday weigh in and quote

You will never find time for anything.
If you want time, you must make it.
- Charles Buxton, American writer

Isn't this the truth!

How many times have you said to yourself....I don't have the visit with friends, to exercise, to eat right, to play more with your children, to spend quality time with your significant other or to do something for yourself.

We all get so caught up in the every day activities that we forget that time is in our control. I fall into this trap quite often I must sadly say.

So today is a new day.
I will make time for the things that are most important to me.
Today it is exercise.....

Week 1 Update
1. What is your current weight? 166lbs
2. What have you done well this week? what makes you proud of yourself?
I have exercised 3 days this week and watched most days to limit the snacks.
I also have worked on my mental image...something that sabatoges my progress.
3. What could you be doing to better or improving?
I need to exercise more, and make more conscious choices for the foods I
4. What is your game plan for week 2?
I plan on exercising 6 days next week (30mins cardio each day)
I am making a menu plan and sticking with it....chosing water instead of pop
to drink

Thursday, September 01, 2005

Well its official

As of baby is in Grade five.
When I use to hear parents cry and moan about how the years flew by, I would roll my eyes and sigh.
Fast forward 10 years and here I am...crying and moaning myself.
Somewhere in that time, the tiny fragile china doll (only 5lbs 7oz and 18inches long) has grown into a young lady....I enjoy the time watching all the changes that she has encountered and fear the changes still to come.....

Wednesday, August 31, 2005


Now just what should these treasure become when they grow up???

Guess what? I'm not telling....LOL
Stay tuned in to find out!

Monday, August 29, 2005

It's like Christmas

Today I found in my lonely mailbox a parcel from my sweet SP.
She just made my day.

First each small gift was specially wrapped.

Then after I opened each of the special treasures this is what I found

My newfound gifts are a lavender candle, jasmine scented oil and a lightbulb ring, a mini scrapbook, a notepad that says "just for happy", a x-stitch pattern for angel bookmarks and my prize possession "Stitch 'N Bitch" book.

Thank you so much for you generosity and kindness.
Now can you reveal yourself?

Lazy days of summer are ending

Yes you read that right....sigh
Summer is coming to an end, the days are getting shorter, the evenings cooler and school starts in 3 days. Where did the time go?

Well this realization is giving me the kick in the butt that I need.
Time to get back to what I started back in and my health.

So this morning I started the exercising and healthy eating again.

My "8 minutes in the Morning" exercise book had a good quote this morning.
I think I might just put it on another paper by my computer, so that I can read it daily.

When health is absent
Wisdom cannot reveal itself,
Art cannot become manifest,
Strength cannot be exerted,
Wealth is useless, and
Reason is powerless.

-Herophilies, 300 B.C.

Creative time

Recently I was able to acquire a dresser and nightstand, gently used, from the local freecycle. My intent was to do something with it for my daughter's room.
Well regretfully the objects just sat in my garage gathering dust and my daughter became increasingly annoyed!

So then a creative urge came over me and in the span of 4 days, I created a masterpiece.

Naturally I was pleased with the experience. I had fun! I got to be creative! And finally the items were finished! My daughter was thrilled!!!!

Then the neighbor came over....she just had to see she said.
Once she left, she had gooshed over the items, hired me to paint her daughter's set and has encouraged me to branch out and do this for some extra cash.

Can you believe that?
Getting paid to play????
What a thought!!!!

Thursday, August 25, 2005

The old saying goes....

Pride goeth before a fall...LOL
And so it seems to be true!
Today I decided to get my act together and paint the furniture I had promised to finish for my daughter. The day was going well...primer done...coat one done....coat two I went to check my e-mail thinking to myself what a great job I was doing

BUT when I returned I found Kitty footprints on the top of the furniture which led down to the coach and proceded onto the hardwood and towards the stairs. Either the paint had dried by the time she met the carpet or she took a detour to the basement. Not sure yet..LOL

Easier to laugh now then I was scrubbing and repainting.

So my cat now has purple feet...isn't she fancy!!!

Sunday, August 21, 2005

apology to my SP

So sorry to my secret pal from SP5. In all the craziness of this summer I forgot to post a picture of the wonderful package she sent me last month. It included sock yarn, bamboo needles to make the socks, a journal to keep track of my projects, a pack of playing cards with a Harley on it, a wonderful hand-knit hat and a bracelet for my daughter. This package made my day...thank you so much SP!

Friday, August 19, 2005

Reminder of home

This trip wouldn't have been complete without visiting a place with my daughter's name. Just made more homesick...thank goodness we were heading home.

Hubby and I visiting Devil's Tower

Family fun

Even when out on a fun trip a motorcycle had to be incorporated.
Can you say obsessed...LOL


This was the beginning of the needles highway. What a site!
All these bikes pouring through the one-way tunnel....and the view from up top....WOW!

Crazy Horse

This project makes a person just stand and look in awe at how someone can dream so big.

Little BigHorn memorial

I'm back......

What a great vacation!
Good weather (except for a couple of rain storms), good friends and great scenery. Who could ask for more.

For those who don't know....I went on a trip with hubby to Sturgis.
It is an experience that all should have. There is everything from tame and mild to wild and crazy. It is a people watchers paradise...LOL

But as Dorothy said after her trip to OZ...there really is no place like home.

Thursday, August 04, 2005

Its Vacation time......

Well it is finally here. Vacation!!!!
We leave tomorrow for a motorcycle first for a long distance.
Off to Sturgis to see how the bikers

For those of you who don't know what that is a place in South Dakota where once a year the bikers of the world meet. It is sponsored by Harley Davidson however, ever type of biker seems to appear.

I am sure after this trip I will have tons to tell and show you all.

Saturday, July 23, 2005

Back from the abyss.....

Hi all out in blog land.
How are you all doing? Not that I have that many reading my

I just realized it has been over a month since I last posted. And what a month it has been.
My absence began with my grandmother having a severe stroke. This put my life into a bit of a tailspin. This great woman was my "mother" so to speak. She took me in when my mother proved too young to raise me and she showered me with her love and guidance.

Even at this age (40 in 8 days) I feel a need for the mother figure.

Anyway after a struggle to hang on for 6 days...she finally let this world of pain go and moved on to a better place.

Now the grieving begins. Most days are okay but occassionally I find I am sailing into the abyss and not seeing a shore near at all.

I guess that is just the nature of grieving....Its difficult letting go of anything of value....let alone someone you love.

But I just wanted to let you know....I AM BACK!

Thursday, June 16, 2005


I just love inspiration thoughts....sayings that incite change for the better....anything that makes me strive to be all that I can be and more.

I have hordes of books, files and cds that appeal to this side of my nature.
This is probably one of the reasons I bought the book "8 Minutes in the Morning" by Jorge Cruise. Not only does it instruct me on exercises for each morning and foods that are beneficial to my quest of also starts each day with a motivational thought, or phrase.

This quote really hit home with everything in my life the last couple of months.

Obstacles don't have to stop you. If you run into a wall, don't turn around and give up.
Figure out how to climb it, go through it, or work around it.
By Michael Jordan, US basketball player

Makes you think....hhhhmmmmm!!!!!!!!!!!!

Gopher dance!!!???!!!

Has anyone out there seen the movie "Caddyshack"?

Throughout my university years, whenever something was good, my gang would dance around like the gopher in the was hilarious to see a bunch of 20 year olds moving their butts around in a group. The image brings back great memories.

Anyway....on Tuesday I became that young soul once again.
I am sure people must of thought me insane.

Lately, my hubby has nicknamed me "droopy drawers". An endearing name he thinks but I don' I decided I needed a couple new pair of pants, shorts or something. I went into Reitmans and went to grab the size 13 (one size down from what I wore in the winter months) however, on a whim I decided to grab the size 11 as well.

After endouring the horrors of the change room and its humongous mirror....I left with 2 new skorts....drum roll size 11.....OMG!!!

That means since changing my eating habits, my cleanse and exercising religiously....I have dropped 2 sizes on the bottom half of me....yipee!!!!!!!

See me do the Gopher Dance....shaking my smaller butt all over....LOL

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

This is a picture of my favorite walking path by the river. I guess I need to sprout fins or find another path for awhile...LOL Posted by Hello

It rained for 4 days off and on and then 4 days of constantly rain....this resulted in the town being put on flood alert. Even us on the hill were concerned for our basements. Thank goodness for sun....finally! Posted by Hello

Rain, rain, go away! Posted by Hello

I always teased my hubby that I wanted a mustang for my 40th birthday. This is what I got 2 months early....what a sweetie! Posted by Hello

Sunday, June 12, 2005


I have finally been accepted into the close circle of friends known as SP5.
I am beyond thrilled! I love mystery, intrigue and just getting to know new people...this all said I guess it is time to fill out my questionaire for my buddy.

1. Are you a yarn snob (do you prefer higher quality and/or natural fibers)? Do you avoid Red Heart and Lion Brand? Or is it all the same to you?
No I am not a yarn snob. I love all types of yarn but shy away from anything too scratchy if the item being made is for me....I hate hives! My reintroduction to the love of knitting and the community online that comes with it is showing me that experimenting can be fun

2. Do you spin? Crochet?
No I do not spin...have been curious about it though. My community has a local spinning group. I might just have to check it out in September (see my hubby shiver with fear)
I do crochet...not as often as knitting though.

3. Do you have any allergies? (smoke, pets, fibers, perfume, etc.)
On allergies are to smoke.

4. How long have you been knitting?
My grandmother taught me when I was 7 years it is going on 33 years...Oh My!
Of course, I have my peaks and valleys on my enthusiasm.

5. Do you have an Amazon or other online wish list?
No I don't....I should maybe look into having one

6. What's your favorite scent? (for candles, bath products etc.)
I love musk scents...nothing too sweet.
I also love jasmine and lavender.

7. Do you have a sweet tooth?
Too much so...LOL
I love salty stuff too and the two together is unbeatable!

8. What other crafts or Do-It-Yourself things do you like to do?
I am a crafter at heart....I scrapbook, paint, needlepoint, knit, crochet, am thinking of starting quilting, name it.

9. What kind of music do you like? Can your computer/stereo play MP3s? (if your buddy wants to make you a CD)
I love most music....but lean towards soft rock, 80s, pop and country

10. What's your favorite color? Or--do you have a color family/season/palette you prefer? Any colors you just can't stand?
Red, red, red and oh did I say red....LOL Red is my signature color but I also like most other colors....vibrant color over pastel anyday.

11. What is your family situation? Do you have any pets?
I am a SAHM to an energetic 9 yr old girl, motorcycle riding hubby, one husky named Scout, two cats and a Beta fish.

12. What are your life dreams? (really stretching it here, I know)
I am hoping to expand my alternative medicine training to enrich my experience.
Right now I am a certified reflexologist and love it....when I am actively working.
I am hoping to take aromatherpy next.

13. What is/are your favorite yarn/s to knit with?
I don't really have a favorite wool right now. I do however love anything soft in nature and vibrant in color.

14. What fibers do you absolutely *not* like?
Once again nothing I really absolutely hate except maybe anything scratchy.

15. What is/are your current knitting obsession/s?
Anything for me...LOL I have a bad habit of knitting for everyone else.

16. What is/are your favorite item/s to knit?
I don't have a long as I am knitting..that is all that matters.

17. What are you knitting right now?
I am currently making a stole, sweater for me and cardigan for my daughter

18. What do you think about ponchos?
I love searching for a pattern...would like to find one that is lacey with little fringe.

19. Do you prefer straight or circular needles?
Am starting to really like circular needles...just finishing a sweater where there is no side seams

20. Bamboo, aluminum, plastic?
I am not a needle snob...will knit on almost anything...but am interested in trying out bamboo

21. Are you a sock knitter?
Not yet...but looking for an easy pattern to try.

22. How did you learn to knit?
My grandmother taught me with a needle my grandfather cut in half and her mother's knitting bag.

23. How old is your oldest UFO?
I have a barbie blanket I made as a daughter now has it.

24. What is your favorite animated character or a favorite animal/bird?
I love the looney toons....mickey mouse but my all-time favorite is Spike(the dog that protects Tweety)

25. What is your favorite holiday?

26. Is there anything that you collect?
I collect angels!!!!!!!!!!!

27. What knitting magazine subscriptions do you have?
Not yet but am thinking about subscribing to "Cast On"

28. Any books out there you are dying to get your hands on?
Stitch 'n Bitch (a knitters handbook) by Debbie Stroller

Monday, June 06, 2005

Not too shabby for about 60 bikers. Whoever said that bikers are scary rowdy men, obviously never knew a true biker. They have hearts of gold! Posted by Hello

This is what most of the bikes looked like...covered in donations Posted by Hello

Hubby and daughter getting ready for the community Harley Teddy Bear Run. All the stuffies are donated to the local hospital for sick children. Posted by Hello

Hopes for the future

Today is my day to be accountable for my actions...sigh
Exercise hasn't been too much of a struggle, but wise eating choices sure has been.

I was watching The View the other day....Renee Zellweger was on. They were talking about her and how she can gain for "Bridget Jones" and then loose it to become "Roxy Hart". She said she just ate how the character would eat and then she goes back to how she eats. But she wouldn't be specific...then Joy got ahold of her. She finally admitted she eats fruit/coffee for breakfast, salad and grilled salmon for lunch and the same for supper or an egg white omelette. Fridays are free to eat anything.

I must admit that as much as I would love her body, I am not sure if I am disciplined enough to eat like that...sigh I just enjoy food way too much. But maybe I could do the lunch and breakfast and then add a bit more to supper. Time to think things through.

Goal update:

What is your current weight? 170lbs
What have you done well this week? What makes you proud of you?
I stuck to my exercises for 5 of the 7 days in the week.
Made semi-good choices for meals....considering I was eating out for both days.
What could you be doing better or improving?
I need to make better meal choices and plan ahead
What is your game plan for next week?
I will eat well-balanced meals (3) plus 2 healthy snacks each day
I will exercise 7 days this week

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

My new treat Posted by Hello

Tuesday, May 31, 2005

Its treat time!

I have learned one thing from being a mom....everyone loves a treat!
Also I have learned that I am no
For all the hard work I have been putting in lately, I decided my treat should be some type of clothing.

My choice is a cute tank top made out of a luscious dark orange/yellow/light orange wool....more on the cotton side.

New clothes for the new body...perfect treat!

Monday, May 30, 2005


So have any of you seen an oogie-boogie look in the eye doctor?
That is my view on iridology. It is freaky! Amazing! And very acurate!
I was introduced to my doctor by my aunt. She was tired of the band-aid views of Western medicine and was referred to Blair by a friend.
When you fill out your name and address and say nothing else.
It amazed her so much she said "you just have to try it!"
So I did....and that was 3 years ago.

Blair combines iridology(a diagnostic science in which the study of markings in specific areas of the iris are used to indicate dysfunction in corresponding organs of the body) and other beliefs from complimentary medicine practices to make a diagnosis. After this he gives you a list of herbs to take and foods to avoid.

As strange as it may seem to some....and you must have an open mind to alternative medicine for this to work....I believe in it completely.
Whenever I feel off...not quite is time to reconnect with Blair. And that is just what I did last week.

Blair says my kidney ducts are partially blocked...this is why I am retaining water, feeling tired and sluggish and just out of wack.
Suggestions....avoid...chocolate, peanut butter, almonds/butter, greasy foods, dairy, sweets, wheat, breads and pasta...sigh
Herbs of choice....dandelion supreme...for my kidney ducts and supreme minerals for my blood.
I go back in early July to see how things are progressing.

Once again this way of living isn't for everyone but I am happy with the results so far.
Not only am I gaining more energy....but this way of eating is really helping with my "getting healthy" kick.

So hopefully Blair has me on the right track.

Monday, May 23, 2005

Goal Setting

I think the hardest part to losing weight and changing my lifestyle is the goal setting.
I am always setting the goals but the follow through is a a different story.
Lately I have following the book "8 Minutes in the Morning" by Jorge Cruise.
At the end of week one he has you answer 4 questions.

1. What is your current weight? (also write down your original weight)
- 170 lbs

2. What have you done well this week?
- I have followed through with some type of exercise every day.
What makes you proud of you?
- Sticking to my goal of the week

3. What could you be doing better or improving?
- I could make better choices for snacking and meals

4. What is your game plan for week 2?
- I will exercise everyday....increasing my treadmill time to 40 mins and I will stop eating after 7 at night.

Maybe if I write the changes will get easier

Sunday, May 22, 2005

A new start...a new day

Hi all :-)
I hold my head down in shame.
Once my cleanse was over I was so thrilled to see food again, I went
But now it is back to reality and my goals.

Today is a new day and my quote for the day is

You will never find time for anything. If you want time, you must make it!
By Charles Buxton, American writer

This so true. More than most are willing to admit.
For the past two weeks I have made it a priority to do some type of exercise (usually the treadmill). On the days that I skip, it is usually because I have let other things be a priority.
Plus I end up feeling gross for the neglect.

So I make myself a new promise....I am a priority!
My health, my body, my outlook on life...all are important.

I weighed in at 170 lbs.
42 inch chest, 36 3/4 inch waist and 40 inch hips
This is my starting point.....time to move forward.

My goal for this week is 7 days of intentional exercise and no snacking after 7 pm at night.
I will add to my changes each week or so. Would hate to scare myself into failure.

Time to begin.

Monday, May 02, 2005 9 & 10

Nothing really new to report.
Other than one day of yuck...the only change has been my menu.
I guess if that is the biggest thinking about what I am putting in my mouth...then it is all worth it.

I went to a movie on that was fun!
All those smells...yum. I am a junkfood junkie when watching movies...sigh.
I settled in with my bottle of water and a couple bites of my hubby's popcorn to tied me over.

Boredom is definitely setting in with this diet.
I am starting to miss the variety and flavors of food....guess 12 days is longer than I imagined...LOL
Only 2 days left...I can do it.

After the cleanse I am off on working the Dr. Phil way of thinking.
I began reading his book and am on chapter 2...emotional eating..boy is that me!
Stress, happy, sad, family get-to-gethers, lonliness, celebration, name it.
It is definitely a good read so far.

Also I am starting intentional exercise today....30 mins to start with.

Hopefully this will continue to be a positive experience.

Saturday, April 30, 2005 8

Today offered a new challenge.
I have been staying close to home for most meals just to avoid the temptation of cheating.
However, today I got an emergency call from my daughter's school...they needed someone to help with the hot dog program. This runs for about 3 1/2 hours....surrounded by bread, hotdogs, milk and ice cream.

Thinking this may be difficult, I planned ahead.
In my bag was a bottle of water, a V8 juice, a bag of almonds and a bag of carrots.
I survived! Without one cheating moment. It amazed me because it sure smelled

A few people have asked what I am allowed to
This program is limiting flour products, peanuts, all fermented foods, anything containing yeast, fruit juices, certain fruits because of their large amount of simple sugars.

Your diet is centered around 3 columns of food.

Column 1...protein foods (acid forming foods)
Acceptable....beans, beef, coffee(max 2 cups), eggs (whole), whole grains, lamb, lentils, liver, nuts, oatmeal, peas, poultry, pork, prunes(cooked), rhubarb(cooked),white rice, seeds, soy beans, tofu, veal, wheat germ
Not recommended....buttermilk, cheese, seafood(shellfish), yogurt
This column makes up 20% of your daily intake

Column 2....starch foods (alkaline forming)
Recommended....almonds, millet, buckwheat, brown rice
Acceptable...aplles, apricots, berries, cherries, lemons, peaches, pears, plums, nectarines, popcorn, baked potato, pumpkin, squash, yams, sweet potatoes, sesame sees, soy milk, tahini, tomatoes
Not recommended...banans, currants, dried fruit, fruit juices flour of any grains, grapes, honey, malt, maple syrup, melons, molasses, oranges, pasta, pineapple, raisins, soups, tropical fruit
Not recommended at any time....cakes, candy, ice cream, processed cereal, flour gravy, fruit juices with sugar, oily nuts and peanuts, sugar

Column 3....bulk forming foods (neutral foods)
Recommended....chives, garlic, ginger, onions, herbal tea, water
Acceptable...arugual, artichokes, asparagus, avocado, beans, beats, bok choy, broccoli, brussel sprouts, butter, cabbage, carrots, auliflower, clery, collards, corn, chards, cucumber, dandelion, eggplant, endive, escaole, herbs, kale, kohlrabi, lettuce, mustard greens, okra, oils (except peanut oil), parsley, parsnips, peas, peppermint, peppers, radiccio, radishes, rutabagas, seaweeds, sorrel, spinach, sprouts, turnips, vegetable seasoning, watercress
Not recommended...cottage cheese, mushrooms

Column 2 & 3 make up for 80% of your intake

So as you can see I have lots to eat.....this cleanse is just opening my eyes to what is out there.
Life is to easy at grabbing the processed foods....but nature provides some interesting options.

Friday, April 29, 2005 7

Just another day on the cleansing road.
This really is not that difficult.....main change is looking at the way I am eating and cooking.
My sinuses are clearing more everyday too....guess after this experience it will be time to go see my iridologist again....might as well really go for the gold.

My mood is more positive with the more sun that that really has nothing to do with the cleanse though. I can't believe I have less than a week left.

Food....rice cake/almond butter, pear, popcorn, carrots, V-8 juice with tabasco and celery seed, baked pototo, poached chicken, tomato, green beans with lemon dill seasoning, and nutmeg and almonds

Drink...another cool day....1 green tea, 1 gingerbread tea, 3 apple cinnamon tea, and 7 glasses of water

Onto tomorrow

Thursday, April 28, 2005 6

Today is the midway point of the cleanse. From here it is just downhill....and not in a bad way.
I decided that yesterday was definitely the weather. Today there is some sun and my mood is perking up...maybe the weather affects me more than I realized.

Cleansewise I feel pretty good. The bathroom and I meet occasionally....not as much as I expected....they say that is a good thing.

My biggest obstacle now is the water....I am not one to drink much....but I need to drink 8 glasses....some days I meet my goal...other days I come close...but I have found that the more I drink, the more I am waking up craving the stuff.

ON a positive note, I went to the mall today with fear in my heart. All those glorious smells...would they be my downfall....NO! I went with water bottle and bag of carrots in hand...and it worked. My girlfriend and her kids munched on carmel popcorn...I enjoyed the smell and popped carrots in my mouth instead.

Todays menus....rice cakes with almond butter, pear, carrots, salad, stirfried beef strips in garlic, onion and peppers. It seems like the more fruits and vegetables I eat the less hungry I that normal I wonder.

Wednesday, April 27, 2005 5

Its a gray day today!!
I'm not sure if my lack of energy is a result of the cleanse or the gray day outside with its snow/rain and cool wind....ugh!
Today, also, the bathroom and I are becoming more acquainted....knew this day would come...just wasn't sure when.

I am getting tired of the diet too. I really need to expand my cooking abilities that correlate to this way of thinking. I think tomorrow I might buy a good steak and grill/broil it on the salad greens for a change.

I, also, changed my large meal from supper to lunch. I felt just downright bloated the last couple of days after supper. Hubby suggested the switch and ssshhhh! don't tell him, but he was right...LOL
I felt much better tonight and really not very hungry at suppertime....but had to eat something to go with the pills. I, too, cut out the night snack of didn't go well on the stomach either.
Much better night due to changes I am sure.

Food....boiled eggs, carrots, rice cakes with almond butter, rice stirfried with chicken, onion, garlic, broccoli, carrots, red/orange peppers, apple

Drink....7 glasses of water and 1 green, 3 licorice, and 1 apple/cinnamon tea...told you it was a cool gray day outside...all I wanted was something warm to drink.

Oh and as an willpower is much stronger than I thought.
I love sugar, chocolate...oh and did I mention
Well hubby wanted treats for the office...I made brownies and chocolate zucchini cake and didn't cheat once, not even to lick the bowl or finger....WTG me :-)

Tuesday, April 26, 2005 4

The energy level is atleast that is how it feels.
I feel great! And I got so much accomplished.
Still not sure how the cleanse is working...yes my skin has broken out and yes I am in the bathroom quite often....hopefully that is a sign that it is working.

Otherwise....the food is where I am learning the most.
How to make meals that are healthy and tasty without what I use to think was necessary.

Food....Red delicious apple, rice cakes with almond butter, red/orange peppers, carrots, poached chicken with rice, onions, garlic, celery, peppers, carrots and asparagus, popcorn

Drink....5 glasses water and 2 green tea

Also, my body seems to be consistant...I am down one more pound today...167lbs this morning....

True this isn't about the weightloss but it sure is a nice side effect...LOL 3

I woke up Sunday morning to find my headache finally gone...yipee!
Moodwise I was feeling much better and started to get bursts of energy which I used to my advantage. I am really surprized that I don't crave sugar more....I am sure it is my biggest downfall.

Went to the store and bought V-8 juice, rice crackers and almond butter...yummo!
I think I have found a new treat...the store had almond/hazelnut, cashew, hazelnut and a mystery butter which is a combo. I will experiment after the cleanse. However the almond butter is mixed with the rice crackers seemed like a great treat!

I haven't spent as much time in the bathroom as I thought I would...but I guess I still have days to go before I am finished.

I seem to be losing about 1lb a day....will be nice if the trend continues.
Exercise hasn't been much since it is recommended that you don't do a lot in the you out much more.
Monday will start with a few easy walks to get back into the swing of things.

Food....scrambled eggs, strawberries, rice cakes with almond butter, carrots, poached chicken, mixed greens, red/orange peppers, celery, and tomato
Drink....1 green tea, 1 licorice tea, 8 glasses of water (I am floating away)...LOL 2

I am not quite so chipper today...LOL
Not sure if the body is going through withdrawal for sugar or the pills were doing their thing....

Woke up with a slight headache with persisted for most of the day.
Headache was focused in the sinus area.
After supper I felt woozy, and nauseaus....didn't dare drive....and I was exhausted!
I could of fallen asleep at 8 or earlier if I could of afforded the luxury.

Food....strawberries, scrambled eggs, apple, carrots, popcorn (dry), more carrots, poached chicken breast, tomato, baked potato and mixed greens with lemon and olive oil.
Drinking was 1 cup green tea, 2 cups licorice tea and 6 glasses of water....the water is my biggest challenge.

I did however buy groceries yesterday and stock the fridge with cut up fruits and veggies....makes grabbing food much easier. I was also reading my food list a little closer and they say I can have almond butter on rice cakes and V-8 guess I am visiting the store

It is definitely a learning experience.

Onto day 3

First step

As a first step, I have chosen to have an herbal detox or cleanse. Herbal D-Tox by Wild Rose is my detox of choice. I began my journey on Friday, April 22, 2005.

When I began the cleanse I weighed 172 lbs. Not an easy number to write down...but you can't change what you don't acknowledge (Dr. Phil

Food eaten....scrambled eggs, apple, carrots, baked potatoe, broiled salmon, brown rice, more carrots and cucumber. I have decided I really don't like the taste of brown rice. I need to find a way to make it more palitable.
Drank 4 cups of green tea and 5 glasses of water. I know that I drank a lot of tea however, I drink lots of green tea normally and this cleanse allows for green I took advantage of it.
Mood.....upbeat, positive,
No headache, hours in the bathroom, aches or pains.

Main thing I am noticing is how this cleanse really makes you look at what you eat.
I never realized how much I just grab and go. I guess that is my lesson for the day.
Planning ahead will make my meal choices that much easier.

Starting Point

I am starting this blog as a way to make myself accountable for my journey into health.
I have travelled so far this life just accepting that I can do what I want and not pay the consequences. But in doing so I have gained more weight than I am content with, I am unfit, unhealthy and unhappy with things as they stand right now. So in writing things down I hope to encourage myself and others to move their life in a positive direction.

40 is just around the corner for me....perfect time to start.